Once upon last week I decided to go to a Shift The Power Conference.
It was interesting to say the least. The conference itself wasn't that enriching. In fact I could hardly call it a conference, more like a large meeting. I thought it to be slightly dull. However, I could probably attribute that mostly to the fact that my group and I were tardy and I didn't make it to the panel/workshops that were actually interesting... J and I listened to a panel on hip-hop and the environment. I quote their keynote speaker:
"We was hyphee like 10 years ago...I was the 22nd best tennis player in the bay area (clapping)..then I got shot...Music is positive to real life...thank y'all"
Their was some message in there that I didn't get; I found myself being critical a lot of the panels I went to. I am critical of unorganized activism, un-channelled aggression. But, I enjoyed the state wide meetings that we had for a whopping five minutes, There we discussed issues about Washington state. I love Washingtonians. The small group is what did it. There wasn't a inexperienced public speaker screaming at the crowd: "you are the future! get out there, youth, and change the world!!!".

While taking notes and observing the old revolution hungry yuppies I wrote: "how many times can they tell us that we are the 'future.'

I rode the bus home from downtown the other day and stared at a lady with an unusually large forehead.
Things I learned/pondered (while on the bus):
-what is living for?
-we are the environment (the future?. change yourself first of all, to a life of balance, and then you will incidentally, affect the environment more positively. Am I mistaken?)

I have been feeling quite uneasy about what is to come in my near future. Am I making the right choices?
or am I merely just making decisions for my future based on blind feelings that are shadowing my every move?
Nonetheless, I am not going to act upon these feelings, I will see where they take me. Who knows, Maybe making unexplainable decisions will do me good in the long run. Uncertainty appeals to me, Is it such a bad thing?

I have updated my Itunes this past week and I have been fully amused by it since.
Song lyric I am currently hearing, and transcribing:
"Like a fool I am willing to take that fall again and don't let me fall too fast. I wanna fall slowly, I want my fall to last, I want my fall to last." --The Wood Brothers.

Have you ever just cruised?
Cruisin' is a new lifestyle that I was explained to me yesterday. Life is just crusin'. Cruse life, that's a doctrine. It is hard to explain...

Yesterday, I also learned that numbers were originally derived from the number of angles that compose them. Think about 1, the european way of making a one looks like a droopy 7. One angle. Think about 8, but more boxy, eight angles. 4 is easy, a triangle and a line.
Am I boring you? Sorry.

College just seems so utterly alluring. Everyone appears to be so damn cool, and it kills me. People will make literary references during regular conversation (I assume) and people will get it (I assume). Excuse me...I actually may be wrong on the 'cool' part because well, I frankly don't know how cool you all think that is..

Anywho. My goal, to be achieved sometime in the next 2 years: Have a professor, teacher, president.. write the word "brilliant" on something, anything I do. I also want to find someones bookshelf that I have read every single book on.

Something to think about:
instead of saying but, say and.

I'm searching for a new hobby with a new person, any person really. I'm feeling nervy.

I pose a question about neckne: is it the scarves?